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I’m Still Here!



 What’s good??? Yall miss me??? I’m back! I’m Forreal this time. This year’s theme…..(drum roll please) CONSISTENCY!  I am going to finish what I start. Your girl in the past was heavy on the procrastination and that’s not what we are about here in 2024. Can yall believe that it’s 2024 already??? Time is flying for sure. Okay? Okay I know yall want to know WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?? Chill out, relax we gon get there lol. I have been here but let me tell you. God has been taking me on a journey. A journey of true deliverance and healing. This process has had its up and downs. More ups though. But non the less it has been a process. I have been in awe as to how God has been working in my life. I have been listening to Him and doing the things that he’s been telling me. The joy and the freedom that has come out of it has been amazing. 

Okay! Where do I begin? I have so much to talk about. So I will be dropping back to back blogs and I am going to be vlogging as well. God has now called me to talk, so I’m going to talk. 

Yesterday I was sitting at work and all I could think about was all of the times that God was there for me. Since I was young I have always had a relationship with God. My parents instilled that relationship very early on. I remember being very young and praying and just loving God. I was always told I was a peculiar child. I was a very quiet and shy person lol. With family I was probably the loudest in the house lol. I went though so much starting at a young age. I just began to reminisce about how even in those hard moments God was there. Every time I felt alone. God was there. Everytime I felt rejected God was there. Even in my darkest moments God was there. 

I thought about this particular moment in my life. I use to be extremely depressed in my early twenties. Nobody really knew the extent of my depression. There’s was only one  person that did and that was my sister Tyana. I didn’t even know that I was depressed. I just had these moments where I would let everything go. My place was so would be dirty, I would not do my hair and just throw a wig on. I would be stuck in my depression for weeks. My sister Tyana would call and check on me and then just randomly stop by. She was an angel in disguise. She would act like she didn’t see the mess. She never judged me. She would clean my entire place. Take my wig or scarf off and do my hair. We would just sit and talk about what was going on. God would send her to encourage me every time. I will be forever grateful to for those moments. Through God she knew how to get me out. That right there was true friendship. His loved me enough to send someone to just be there. He let me know in that moment that He heard me. God has came through for me countless times. I will definitely talk more about this in another post. 

I love God so much. If you were to sit and have a conversation with about all that I’ve been through, you probably wouldn’t believe me. I’ve been through a lot from an early age but I don’t look like what I’ve been through. I’ve been through enough that according to statistics I should have lost my mind. That’s the power of prayer. My parents instilled in me the love of God at an early age. I remember being young and going through situations and I would pray. I would pray that God would put me on someone’s heart so they would check on me. God came through every time. 

Trust God with all of your heart and lean not onto your own understanding. Don’t look at what it looks like. God is working it all out for your good. Keep going and stay connected to God. Trust me He has your back. Don’t give up. Stay to tuned for part 2!


 












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